Eagle has been put to the test

The last couple weekends, we've been pretty social - hanging out with a group of guys that I don't normally do much with.  We went to a beach house for a night and the next weekend we had a campfire on the beach.  It's been great!  It's been really fun to have active and social weekends with just friends.  I've missed it.  

The reason for the title is - all of a sudden, E, my roommate has wanted to do stuff with us - but we're not allowed to invite her and encourage her to come.  It's been weird.  All of a sudden, it's like I don't want her to come - and I know that is the wrong attitude.  But, if I'm not allowed to invite her - it just gets weird to have her all of a sudden say "I want to come".  So it's been an interesting balance.  

After two weeks of being careful about what I say, I've decided to just be myself.  E never told me what she told A - so I'm just going to do what comes naturally instead of repressing what I want to say.  I don't think I'm treating her any differently than I would my other friends.  That's important to me.